Not a lot to say today. It’s a Thurs­day, a bit of an unusu­al one because of the hol­i­day ear­li­er in the week and it was recy­cling day. I, being an idiot, missed it because it’s nor­mal­ly not on Thurs­days and I got a bit too dis­tract­ed with every­thing last night after work. Oh well. I’ll just have an extra large amount when they come by again in two weeks. Last night, I was watch­ing two dif­fer­ent art streams for a while. Both Embyr and Tirol were stream­ing, and I had both open with both chats. I did­n’t spend the most time in Tirol’s stream and even­tu­al­ly closed it out to focus on Embyr’s as the chat there became a lit­tle more active. Em almost fin­ished the birb com­mis­sion that was ordered and I’m deeply impressed by what she can cre­ate. As it’s not my art nor my char­ac­ter, I can’t real­ly share it here. She should be fin­ish­ing it off tonight, so it should be up on Fur Affin­i­ty before too long.

Tonight is the sea­son final­ly of Strange New Worlds. We’re both rather excit­ed to see it and will watch it after I’m done at the office today. Em informed me yes­ter­day that she had­n’t had a show to look for­ward to in a long time. Of course, it being the sea­son finale and sea­son three is at least a year away. Low­er Decks starts up again next month, how­ev­er, so that will be anoth­er good one to look for­ward to. 

I think I’m deal­ing with a bit of a block with being cre­ative right now. I have a bunch of ideas, but it’s not seem to flow very well. Even writ­ing this post is chal­leng­ing. My thoughts are jum­bled and I can’t set­tle on a sub­ject, as I can’t ven­ture too deeply into any­thing with­out going into details about things I can’t real­ly dis­cuss. For now, I’m just push­ing through the work­ing day and by the time my shift is over, I’m too exhaust­ed to think heav­i­ly or to do much oth­er work. Maybe this week­end will be bet­ter. Maybe I’ll have enough ener­gy tonight. Could it be that I’m just in a rut? The more I think about it feels like I’m just hav­ing a hard time being too open with thoughts and ideas when I have con­cerns about who is view­ing my con­tent. I’m try­ing not to let it change my behav­iour, but I’m uncom­fort­able know­ing what I know. This has giv­en me a new idea on some­thing to work on… If I can moti­vate myself enough this week­end, maybe I’ll work on it. 

Try­ing to stay pos­i­tive. I’ll be back again soon.