It’s been over a week since I’ve post­ed any­thing here. I’m around, albeit not in the best frame of mind. All-in-all its stuff I’m not will­ing to go into online in a pub­lic space but I’m real­ly not in the best place right now for a lot of rea­sons. Still, some­how I am sur­viv­ing, which I guess is at least some­thing. Em’s deal­ing with her own strug­gles which I try to help with the best I can, but giv­en my sit­u­a­tion, there isn’t much I can do. I feel rel­a­tive­ly pow­er­less to the events in my life and some­day I’ll get over these hur­dles until then I… I don’t know. I tried look­ing into ther­a­py, but that costs mon­ey I don’t have.

The LFG post I made rough­ly ten days ago got a reply and myself and Embyr have joined a group and made our­selves some drag­on char­ac­ters. I’ve made a Dream Drag­on bard and Em’s made a Sov­er­eign Drag­on Sum­mon­er. We have some pret­ty good ideas on how to inte­grate the char­ac­ters into our canon but until we actu­al­ly get to play a lit­tle and flesh out their per­son­al­i­ties, I’m reluc­tant to reveal ideas that may not turn out how it’s intend­ed. I’m hes­i­tant to get too excit­ed for this game as far too many gam­ing groups don’t last past the first cou­ple of ses­sions. I’m hope­ful, I’m real­ly hope­ful, as this could be a nice cre­ative out­let and hope­ful­ly inspire oth­er ideas.

I have not been able to focus too well on writ­ing dur­ing this time; I sup­pose I did­n’t try very hard as I ques­tion if it’s even worth­while. I’m find­ing my moti­va­tion is just too low and I just have to wait until all of this pass­es and life gives me a break.
If I was in a bet­ter place… Here’s to hop­ing its soon.